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It’s just a couple of days now before Christmas, December 25th, Jesus’ birthday…. an AMAZING time of year! Christmas, Easter, and the Fourth of July are my all time favorite holidays… that is, except for my very own birthdays!!!
I bet you thought I miss spelled “birthdays?” NOPE! That’s because I have two of em! The day my mom birthed me, the other May 28th, the day Dr. Smith gave me back the rest of my life. To me, my second one is as important as the first. I’ll explain….
After having lived with the pain of my injury for 10 long years, it’s truly been like a rebirth. I now have choices to work towards the kind of life I wanted before I was so badly hurt. (I’ll reference you to go back into my archive in order to get a full understanding.) It’s hard to imagine how badly I was hurting now that I’m well, but, I know I made choices solely based on that pain. FAIR? NOPE! Nonetheless, it happened. Every waking moment was full of excruciating, unrelenting, all-consuming pain. It became my “white noise,” the boom-box that never got turned off in my mind.
With over the counter pain reliever I was able to take the slightest of edges off long enough to go to the grocery store, or attend a program at my son’s school. My best relief came by laying down, but toward the end, even that was interrupted. No doctor would give me meds to relieve that excruciating pain because it was a worker’s comp claim. They didn’t allow it for 7 1/2 years and there was no “doctor of record” who would prescribe any strong meds for me. In the end that worked in my favor, because when I needed them to work for me, Dr. Smith was able to give me a reasonable amount of pain killers to actually help. I didn’t have to be in a stupor because of the high doses.
Christmas, which is the celebration of Jesus’ birth, is very important to me because without Him, our lives would be very different. And like Jesus’ birthday celebration, I love celebrating all birthdays for it keeps reminding me how lucky we are to be here. That’s why my second birthday is just as important as my first. Without my second birthday, my life also would have been very different, and much shorter.
I try to keep true to my reason for writing this website which is to chronicle my healing, but life also goes on while you heal. Holidays, and losses, friends coming and going, and birthdays are all a part of that healing.
I am especially grateful for the chance to have a second birthday and equate it in a small way like Jesus being the gift to all mankind at Christmas. Make no mistake, I’m not likening myself to Jesus, but merely His birthday. You never get a chance as a baby to realize how important your birthday is, but if you’re lucky enough as I’ve been to have a second one, I’ve become acutely aware enough to understand the full impact it can have for a life.
Jesus was born to impact us all. We should never forget that. I realize my race, religion, gender or talents mattered not to Dr. Smith to give me my second birthday. God also looked not at religion, gender, race, or talents when He gave us His Son, but allowed us a portal into the new life we will one day be a part of. I don’t view Dr. Smith as a god, but rather an “instrument” of God sent to save some of us from the ravages of poor choices and unfortunate lives.
It’s hard for me to not be spiritual about my healing when I sit and reflect about how this all came to be for me. And I’m thinking this was no accident. I guess I was meant to write, and about my healing, although I never thought that was my calling. And without the experiences I’ve endured, I wouldn’t have much to write about! My second chance, my second birthday, is very much about rising to a higher order of giving, of sharing, of compassion. It’s about growing emotionally and giving back.
I want to embrace the spirit of this Christmas season more than ever before, take it to heart, and carry it with me all year through as I am afforded the important opportunity to speak with others about their second birthdays too. My wish to all of you is that you all have that same opportunity to see if there isn’t a time in your life of a second birthday, an event or experience which profoundly changed you. Use that as your second birthday, embrace all that it is and give it back to the world!
Isn’t that what the Lord did? If we believe that Jesus is God, then God gave Himself a second birthday so we could be “aware” enough to believe in the true meaning of Christmas. Be well, stay safe, do good things in the coming year and have a very Blessed and Merry Christmas!
And as always, remember to take care of you and yours.